IT WILL GET BETTER, I HOPE

I think that it is possible to both love, and hate, this time of year. The Joy of the Season is negated by the memories of those who are not here. There is also the hectic frenzy of the hustle and bustle. People are everywhere, all the time, at the same time.
On the other hand, seeing my family all together makes my heart soar. I sometimes will just sit quietly, and watch the interaction of family members. They are so close to each other that my eyes will well up. I leave the room so that nobody will think that I am sad.
I cannot seem to get the emptiness to subside. In the past, I could rely on Faye to be my rock. However, she has been struck by tragedy in the last few years, and needs me to be her rock. I am not doing a very good job.
I do not know when the emptiness I feel without mom will go away. I do not know if I want it to go away. I am afraid that the pain of her loss is what keeps her in my heart. If it is, then I gladly accept the pain.
I wish that I were more like her. I try to be, but I do not have her patience, understanding, or “I feel lucky” attitude. These are things that I hope I can change in the future. I am looking forward to seeing everyone again. I hope that my home is the place where my family shares triumphs, defeats, successes, and even failures.
I do have things for which to be grateful. My son, Chris, is doing great in spite of my poor efforts at parenthood. I am so proud of him. My wife, Faye, is healthy, and a ten year survivor. My health is good, and I am taking better care of myself. I feel closer to Faye than I have in years. I think I finally get it. I hope I am not too late.

I'm a Friggin Genius

For those of you who think I don't know what I'm talking about ------  Here is a morsel from my post over a year ago, April, 2009.  This is also for those of you that think I am a right wing conservative that repeats the doctrine of the three stooges --- Rush, Glenn, and Sean.

I just believe that if government stays out of the way, and lets the economy be the Darwinistic force that lets the strong survive and the weak fail, the rising tide will raise all ships.  This not only goes for the big banks, but also for GM and Chrysler.

April 1, 2009

What's Goin' On?

AIG, GM,--------WTF? The real culprit is Goldman Sachs (GS). GS punked AIG by getting a very low rate of insurance on the toxic assets that they were pushing. When the assets failed, AIG had to pay 50 Billion in losses. When the taxpayers bailed out AIG, we were actually paying for Goldman Sachs bad investment. Here's the kicker ----GS stock $110, AIG $1 --- WTF? If a dumbass like me can understand, what's wrong with DC?

I Heard It Through The Grapevine

The threats by our executive branch that it will allow GM to fail and go into receivership are idle threats. It is called brinksmanship, bringing a situation to the brink of disaster so that an agenda can be accomplished. If you think that Obama and the Democratic Party would allow GM to fail, thereby abrogatiing the labor contracts of the UAW, you are nuts. By the way, why was the CEO of GM forced to resign, but the head of the UAW is still there? No answer needed, it was rhetorical.